the word “regret” shouldn’t be in my vocabulary, but lately it has been. after i graduated, i had the options of moving out to LA to dance, going to school to dance, or going to school. but i guess you can’t please everyone with the decisions you make and either way, with anything i did, someone important in my life was not satisfied with what i would/did decide. i moved to arizona last year & even though i liked it, i wasn’t utterly in love with it. i needed something better, i was unsatisfied… then i came back to des moines, ia in the summer and decided to stay and just be a “regular, average person” and go to school. what can i say, biggest regret of my life. yes, i believe education is prominently important & i do plan on receiving a degree. but right now, i just wanna live. i would have been broke as a joke if i moved right after graduation, but hell, everyone who moves to LA starts out poor. i guess at the time i just didn’t have the dedication and complete passion to do so. but now, the passion i lacked is now kicking me in the ass everyday…artists aren’t supposed to live like normal people do…artists are supposed to be hungry, starving. and even if i were broke, living in LA, dancing, living, i would be 100000000000000000 X happier than i am now. music wins my heart, dancing explains everything i can’t through words and i gave that up. i have a talent that i let go to waste because i didn’t work hard enough for it. “hard work beats talent when talent doesn’t work hard”. now i’m an artist trying to live like an average person who goes to school and lives… shoulda, coulda, woulda moved to california for a new journey, but held back…but i wish i lived to starve for art, because whenever i danced, i spoke, i believed, i inspired, i was inspired, i created, and i lived, & i let that all go….i guess what i’m trying to say is that if you have dreams, go for them, fulfill them, because the opportunities you have at a given time are risks, and if you don’t take them, i promise you…..one day you’ll regret it like i did.